We reach a milestone

Before starting this article I remind you that even if our practices with Amantelilli may seem very hard, even shocking and violent, they are always made with full consent, Wanted, accepted freely by her as well as by me. Moreover, nothing is “Fake”, nothing is exaggerated, everything is true. When I scream in pain, I really shout my feelings without adding more. When Amantelilli says something to a man it's true, it's not for “porn”. We do not take “camera poses”, we do not say very raw sentences to excite the audience who will watch the video. At a time when everything is distorted in libertinism with the emergence of real porn actresses pretending to be false libertines it is important to put the church back in the center of the village as they say

We've had quite a few new experiences since the beginning of the year 2022. And yes even after 19 years of libertinism we can still have new enriching experiences ! These latest experiences in various fields, have changed the vision of my sexuality a little, made me think about what really excited me deep down., which made me bandage instantly by thinking about it or living it. I will detail what happened, my feelings and what comes out of them.

As you have known for a long time now, Amantelilli loves hard dating, where she really feels taken in hand by the men she meets whether solo or plurality or Gangbang. For some time now I no longer put any limit to Amantelilli for his meetings whatever they are. She does what she wants, how she wants, when she wants, with whom she wants and she passes all the limits she wants. She doesn't need to wait or ask for any approval from me before an action. She has a “authorization” permanent to do what she wants without thinking about the consequences, to me or to my future feelings about what she will do. No guilt, no limit.

Amantelilli strangled by her lover

My wife likes to be brusque during dating : Spankings, deep gorges a little forced, slapping, choke, fucking very manly, sometimes spitting on his body and face, URO. But in the space of 2 weeks, There is a 2 very very hard meetings where a milestone has been reached.

Meet Style83

There during the meeting with Style83 (you can read the article on my wife's blog by clicking here) she completely let go and accepted to be degraded and humiliated like never before by a man. He fucked him unceremoniously, violently, he insulted her, spat all over his body, the figure, he covered her with piss and fucked her in his urine, he made her lick her feet, really forced deep throats where she spat her bile on her own body, she made him anulingus, he actually strangled her, hit her body, it was just perfect, extremely exciting for her and of course for me too. It was for me a magical moment of excitement. Never had my wife been so far in letting go and never had a man dared to treat her like this.. I couldn't believe the powerful and beastly sexual intensity between them.. It was fantastic to see and experience. It was a meeting that completely excited me from start to finish..

Amantelilli trampled while being fucked

Gangbang hard

Then came 15 days later the Gangbang very hard (you can read it here) where again it has been greatly degraded, humiliated, fucked in all directions without any restraint. These 2 Experiences he enjoyed enormously. She loved it, has enjoyed countless times and very intensely. She herself acknowledged in a tweet that she increasingly likes to be sexually submissive. (only), that she took pleasure in being treated like this, humiliated and degraded, defiled, lowered.

Amantelilli at the disposal of all men

For my part, to see it thus be rudely exploited, seeing her do extreme practices at this point drives me crazy with excitement. I love it, it excites me at an incredible point. Whether in duo or during plurality / it is when it is exploited like that that it excites me the most, that it makes me bandage. She lets herself go fully to be the sex toy of these men, the woman they can abuse without having a bad conscience, yes they have the right to do it and she it excites her enormously to undergo this, this sexual violence, this domination by powerful men.

I will clarify a few details about myself. When I have sex “Penetrating” with Amantelilli, There are 3 possible cases :

• Either we make Love and there we take of course a lot of pleasure every 2 because it is the passionate aspect, fusional that stands out and enjoyment is sublimated. It's a sexual relationship so totally different from everything else in our sexuality.. It is also the rarest.
• Either I take it in a more conventional way by varying places and positions.
• Either I fuck her and there I love to mistreat her, but it is obvious that I go much less far than other men and that it does not put her in trans enjoyment as with other men.

Why ? Simply because the situation is less exciting for my wife and that's normal, I am her husband and even if I abuse her “gently” it will never be as strong and as exciting as with strangers or a third party. In addition, I don't really have the opportunity to go that far, Amantelilli doesn't tell me clearly “destroy me, spit me on, etc…” So yes I will spank her but I do not leave a trace as some do, I will slap her but she will not stand the force of the slap less well, lately she made an anulingus to several men while if I do not ask, I am not entitled to it. There are several practices to which other men are entitled and I very rarely or not at all.

Amantelilli subject to men

Practices that I rarely have the right to do and that she can do to strangers :

• Kissing with the tongue. I may be entitled to it 4 or 5 once a year because Amantelilli doesn't like it. But on the other hand it does it to men to excite them and make them bandage
• Spitting on the face. I never do it. It's reserved for others when she's ultra excited
• Analingus. She just did it at 2-3 men but solo, it does not do so for the moment in Gangbang. For my part it's something I love and I have to ask her to do it.. Plus every time she does it on me it makes her earn points (see the points table 2022 of the sexchallenge here).
• More advanced exhibition. When she is in a duet with a lover she agrees to be exhibited by him in a much more extreme way than with me. Fingering in public (to read here), buttocks on display (to read here).
• She squirts with others not with me. This is something new, since maybe 2-3 years she squirts in Gangbang or even in duet and not with me.
• Sexual degradation and humiliation. It goes further and further with others and it excites him more and more. On my side I rarely manage to humiliate and degrade it and it goes much less far.
• Sexual intercourse lasts much longer. Whether in Gangbang but that makes sense, than in duo with a single man, its reports are longer, varied and the pleasures she has are more important than with me.

This makes a lot of things that change in relation to our intimate sexual intercourse.. This was built over the course of our relationship and little by little we got to this point..

YES I really like that there is this difference in sexual practices between other men and me, like that it is clearly written and unequivocal.

On the other hand, there are consequences to all this, is that my submission, in any case my condition as a submissive cuckold progresses in my head and in my feelings. This is done naturally in me. This change is a long time, progressive but it is present.

Other events of great importance for my sexuality have happened since the beginning of the year.

Amantelilli giving me a prostate massage

Pegging session

First of all there was this Pegging session following a punishment, this is the second real session of my life. It was for me a real session as I could imagine it. Amantelilli doesn't like games that revolve around the. For her part, she does not practice sodomy because she does not like it at all.. On my side, before my wife, it's a practice I've had with all my partners. I've always loved sodomizing a woman. In the same way, Pegging is not a practice that likes to do Amantelilli. For my part it is very mixed but this session was revealing.

Amantelilli giving me Pegging

For the first time it took place face-to-face. I had to raise my legs very high in the expectation of being caught as a missionary. The humiliation of the position and the situation was already very strong. Then Amantelilli really penetrated me with a real dildo of good dimensions. I must say that for the second time she did this., she was perfect in every way throughout the session. Like the other time the 3-4 first minutes are enormously painful for me. It really hurts great, the pain is sharp, unpleasant at the limit of the bearable for me. I feel like my anus is literally being destroyed. Amantelilli was very strong and managed to continue despite the pain she saw in my eyes and body. Then, when I started to get used to the pain that became a little less strong but still present, some kind of pleasure has happened. A very deep form of pleasure, very powerful, very interior. The mixture of humiliation, pain, to feel broken, to see my wife who for the occasion was dressed extremely sexy penetrate me, the degrading words she said more this strange inner pleasure made this moment incredibly powerful., very intense. I ended up enjoying thus degraded, humiliated, broken and destroyed. I'm ashamed to admit that this has been one of the most intense orgasms., deep and strong of my life as a man. I have indeed ejaculated but not only, in my body another form of enjoyment has been revealed. As much after ejaculation everything stops, as much there with this internal orgasm it could have continued even after ejaculation. Post action I understood why it was so powerful. At the outset, I had not enjoyed for several days while masturbating several times. This probably put me in a condition of need for enjoyment and also made my prostate grow. The pleasure I felt had a mechanical part where the belt came to hit, rubbing my prostate and therefore gave me a prostate orgasm. It's for the physical part. But there was also a very important psychological part.. Indeed the humiliation I received from my wife whom I idolize was extreme.. I was belittled, humiliated, actually degraded by it. I really had this feeling that I was destroyed, broken. And it was this feeling that excited me powerfully as rarely as rarely.. These 2 Parties, physical and psychological, made my enjoyment and orgasm incredibly powerful and beautiful. Other consequence, that's the look I had after that on my wife. This has made it even more magnified in my eyes., it made it even more beautiful, more desirable, it put her even more on a pedestal and she became more untouchable to me.. Nevertheless, despite this powerful excitement rarely felt., sharp pain during the entire penetration greatly spoils the pleasure. So it's a practice I don't want to do regularly.. Occasionally when my wife wants to really break me yes, by being a little warned before.

Cuckolding Session

Finally there was one last amazing experience for our couple. The Cuckolding session lived thanks to the participation of CokinMalin13. Cuckolding is a practice that I like very much but which is very difficult to achieve because it is very cerebral and it is necessary that the third participant, the lover of the couple's wife, the Bull is of a very good libertine level and masters the situation. It is not enough for the lover to be dominant, he must know perfectly well how to behave with the wife as well as with the husband. And CokinMalin13 was exemplary, perfect in his role as Bull. This session is perfectly described in Amantelilli's article here.

Full torque control by the Bull

I liked a lot of things in this session. First of all I was calibrated. That is to say that before the meeting I was conditioned. CokinMalin13 is a known and recognized libertine. Cuckolding is not at all his libertine practice. He did it because the opportunity presented itself but it is by no means a habit for him. By mutual agreement of all 3 he became my Master. That is to say that at all times I must obey him and respond to his requests. Shortly before we saw each other the limits were set with him, Amantelilli And me. Like everything I do in life, I put myself fully in the role of cuckold submitted to both my wife and my Master. It's very simple no sex with my wife because she belongs to him the week before we see each other, he takes precedence over me. I have the right to take my wife that 2 maximum times a week from now on. I have to warn him as soon as my wife gets fucked by another. In short, I am conditioned to be his thing, be the last priority in my relationship, an object of torture and humiliation to all 2.

On the day of the meeting I will find my Master to bring him to the room where he is waiting for him Amantelilli who openly became his whore. She adorned herself with the outfit I gave her for Valentine's Day. I'm encagé. The tone is set. being treated like this was an immense humiliation for me. Finding yourself naked caged, having to undergo their sadistic and vicious delirium whether physically or intellectually was a source of very strong emotion. Having nothing to manage, nor the camera, nor the session, I was able to let go of 100% and be myself, trying to surpass myself to satisfy them. Getting slapped by my Master was one of those moments when I felt like I was becoming truly submissive.. Swift blows, humiliating positions, the moment His whore Amantelilli had to start 4 paws on the bed and where I also had to stand next to my wife who was no longer mine in the same position gave rise to a feeling of shame and terrible humiliation in me. When they decided to put Kali's teeth on me and then tie me up to be at their mercy was also a very strong moment.. To suffer the burning of the candle on my body while my Master fucked his mouth.’Amantelilli is one of those moments when my masochism was clearly revealed because I felt ready for it to burn my anus and sex with the wax of the candle but my Master spared me. Be attached, not being able to move, have the figure at 20 cm of the action where I could see Amantelilli applying herself to make the perfect anulingus to my Master by repeating that she does not do this to the cuckold was ultra powerful as a moment. Seeing this powerful man enjoy my wife completely sexually submissive to him for over an hour, allowing him everything on his body while I was treated like, a dog, a big pig it was exhilarating. Jaime have this place in their relationship, the place of the sub-shit, the big pork and especially offer them everything from me without limit. They have all the rights over me, physical and psychological.

Burned with candles by my Master while he fucks the mouth of my wife Sa Pute

YES I loved living ça, go through all this, it was purely beautiful, awesome and incredibly exciting. He is now my Master and I owe him obedience in all areas. Thank you Master for this experience that will remain forever engraved in my memory. I'm ready to relive that and go even further, much further.

All these events made me aware of several things.

It's obvious that I like to be humiliated, gradient, lowered, destroyed. I feel a huge pleasure and a powerful orgasm when I am broken psychologically and physically. These are my deepest orgasms. I like to see my wife being degraded by other men while I can't go that far. Somewhere deep inside me, to see it humiliates me. The harder the men are with her the more it makes me bandage and it excites me. When Amantelilli tortures me or really humiliates me, it also makes me really bandage. I love it when she goes very far with me, when it breaks me psychologically and physically. I love it even, when she dominates me on all levels. In fact in general I like when my orgasm, my enjoyment is humiliating or degrading. What I like enormously is to see that my wife's sexual activity is rich in multiple orgasms with other men while I am condemned to be able to take it to the maximum 2 once a week to follow my Master's orders. To be more precise when in the month we have planned a meeting, a gangbang, I don't take my wife anymore 2 or 3 days before so as not to “damage it” then, his sex often needs 3 to 4 days to recover. To this must be added 7 to 10 days when Amantelilli has its rules and no penetration in that moment. Plus we live in real life and so we don't do that every night.. To summarize I can penetrate my wife between 6 and 8 twice a month (outside holidays where we have more time for ourselves). I am talking here about penetration because for sexual games between us it is much more often obviously. And this frequency of penetration is for me very good because, there is a huge contrast between me that can penetrate it 8 times in 1 month and a group of 15 men who will take it in 2 hours ! I feel ridiculous next door and it's super humiliating for me. I love it. My wife is rare for me but ultra available to everyone else and that's what excites me crazy.

When my sexuality comes down to masturbating in front of such a show

My wife is rare for me This sentence perfectly sums up my feelings. My wife is becoming more and more inaccessible to me. Being able to take it then becomes a privilege that is offered to me while for others it is a banality especially when I see it offered in slaughter in cine X without making a selection. As you know our sex life is divided into 2 games per month. 15 days I am his submissive and 15 days when she is at my sexual disposal. With my evolution, it is clear that there is still a part of me in my heart “domineering” that I can't and don't want to erase. But this part has shrunk. I still need to abuse my wife from time to time. It's in those moments when I like to slap her, strangle, spanking her and abusing her mouth. But as I can't let go like other men do and how she goes less far with me, do this kind of session 1 to 2 once a month is now sufficient. Obviously it is to give a figure but sometimes it can be more because my desires for domination at that time are more present. Yes it makes me bandage to hit my wife and strangle her. But it turns out that I tape even more easily when in my head at the time of taking it I tell myself that it is a privilege, an honor to be able to take this woman who is so submissive with other men and who will give me less than to them. And lately I also tell myself that it is an honor to have the right to take the Whore of my Master. It is a privilege that can be taken away from me at any time. Nevertheless even in my fortnight of domination, I have these thoughts that are born in me. It is rather in sexual games that I will now dominate her. I'm going to give him exhibition challenges, challenge, or to offer it to the sight of other people, or to put her in situations where she will have to surpass herself as I have already done during our trip to La Ciotat where I proposed 4 challenges in Amantelilli. Obviously this will play on the table of points that you can find here. Moreover, by mid-year it has already acquired an indecent number of points. Definitely this year I was too nice when I created this painting.

Yes I need now to worship my wife to be excited. I would also like her to be more haughty in our games, that she plays with me this role of inaccessible woman that she has become in my eyes. Let her not hesitate to do so. “pêter” when she's with me (it is to oppose it of its nature, for it does not “pête” never sexually or on his physique). My sexuality is now based at least 80% on masturbation with or without enjoyment. And my thoughts when I masturbate are always in the realm of my degradation, of my humiliation, to be broken by this revered woman. I am at a point where if Amantelilli asks me to kneel in front of her, to worship her legs which I adore while masturbating while she insults me, calls me, of large pork, vicious old, that she spits in my face and allows me to enjoy on her nylons it brings me an immense and ultra strong enjoyment almost as good as a standard penetration if I can say.

Venerating my wife by being caged

Being destroyed physically is also very exciting but still less than psychologically for me. Unless the resulting enjoyment is degrading enjoyment. Like for example when I enjoyed during the Pegging session. It could also be done by putting me in the anus for example a connected object controlled remotely by my wife and which would make me without being touched, there the feeling of being broken and being ridiculous would be very present. Or the ruined orgasm. The tortures I enjoy the most are those about my gender, my anus and breasts. That she forces me to drink my sperm after an SM session where I really suffered. But still suffer a milking while being at 4 legs like a dog. The good thing is that more and more at the end of an SM session to make me she orders me to masturbate stupidly while she insults me. I rarely like to have the right to masturbation until the enjoyment on her part because it is something she does very easily to other men.. In the same state of mind to have the right to her mouth becomes an honor while she has sucked hundreds of men in her life. In short, I want to be less well regarded and treated less well than all the other men to whom she offers herself.. Having to take the worst psychological or physical outrages to be entitled to her while she is easily offered to all is ultra exciting for me.

Another point that I totally assume is my addiction to my fetishism. The legs d’Amantelilli are for me absolutely very beautiful, real works of art. When they are covered with Nylon and covered with pumps then it reinforces my submission to her. I'm becoming more and more dependent on it. Summer is for me a hell for my libido that collapses. It also has a humiliating effect because for the majority of men, summer is the time for short skirts and light outfits that boost men's libido, but for me this is not completely the case and it adds to my humiliation in front of other men. This fetishism is so important that when you went to do the Gangbang, my wife dressed sexy with stockings and pumps. I spontaneously dared to throw myself at his feet without asking his permission by kissing the nylon of his legs and feet.. I needed it so much it was stronger than me to make this gesture of submission. She did not understand it very well because she told me that she was not at all in the state of mind of my submission but rather the opposite because she was going to offer herself as a sexual submissive to these men during the gangbang. I blamed myself for having done this and since then I no longer dare to spontaneously throw myself like this to satisfy my fetishism.

Venerating my wife's nylon-sheathed legs

The last point that I miss terribly and that our couple has already experienced, it's that my wife is some kind of “official lover” with whom it could be taken without a condom. This is the holy grail for any submissive cuckold. We experienced this with our South African friends, who are our wedding witnesses. He was the only one with me to take it without a condom.. But we no longer see them as a result of what happened in the world and especially he has not taken my wife for a few years.. It was really fantastic because for me it is the pinnacle of candaulist and cuckold pleasure if you add all the possible sperm games. I really miss it a lot.

As for the other women you will have understood my devotion to my wife Amantelilli being infinite it acts as a kind of psychological castration. Not to mention the fact that it doesn't excite my wife at all to see me or know me with another. On the other hand, as I know that I will not achieve anything with another woman, accepting that a woman wants to play with me becomes a little humiliating because I know that I will not be able to meet her expectations and that I will disappoint her. Unless this woman has in mind to humiliate me by giving me a or masturbation and find that I do not band even going to make me enjoy stupidly by being soft. After all I am no longer really a man but rather an object in the service of sex and humiliation.

That's where I'm at. I try to assume it but it's not always easy and my wife's look plays a lot. Does she appreciate this new turn in my sexuality ? He likes it ? Discussion is not always easy, even if the gestures speak for themselves because you should never lie in terms of sexuality because otherwise one of the 2 will be unhappy in the couple. She of course realized all this.. But above all, we must go at everyone's speed. I'm very proud of what my wife did to me without really wanting to.. A docile man, devoted, faithful who worships his wife as a goddess and who is the happiest of men when she takes pleasure with others than me.

I never thought that one day my sexuality would evolve this way.. This is due only to the infinite Love I bring to my wife and the source of happiness she brings me every day.. She is such an exceptional woman that the hold she has on me lives up to this exception..